Remembering God’s Faithfulness While Waiting on His Timing

Lately, I’ve found myself wanting to rush something.

I wish I could tell you I’ve mastered waiting on God, but I haven’t. In fact, I think God is teaching me the same lesson all over again.

A few months ago, I was very unhappy with my job. For about 6 months, I found myself internally miserable at work.

I felt that I had outgrown my current situation and was ready for something completely new. So I began putting in applications elsewhere.

For “some reason,” I knew my journey was leading me towards becoming a full-time nanny. But I wasn’t finding any families that matched my needs, and wasn’t hearing back from the families that did. It seemed as if the more nothing happened with the job search, the more miserable I was becoming in my present job.

I spent weeks looking for new employment and became borderline desperate. This desperation led me to almost being scammed by a family. That’s the moment it dawned on me – I was attempting to operate outside of God’s timing.

You see, I’m a firm believer that what God has for me is for me. And no one can change that. So the fact that I wasn’t getting a clear yes could only mean God was calling for me to be still, for a reason that was completely unknown to me at the time.

So I stopped.

Not because I suddenly loved my job.

Not because my circumstances changed.

But because I realized that if God wasn’t opening the door yet, there was still something for me to learn where I was.

And I didn’t just stop looking for employment, I also stopped being content with being miserable every day.

I began to show up to work every day with intention. I let go of the bitterness that was keeping me from being fully present. During this time, a deeper connection was made between my clients and me, and I was no longer getting so deeply affected by things that were beyond my control.

I even began to speak up and use my voice more, which helped me to create new evidence that dismantled a major negative core belief.

Not long after, God gave me the go-ahead to move forward with becoming a full-time nanny. He gave me a front row seat as to why his timing is always better than mine.

If I had transitioned prematurely, I would not have experienced the transformation that God already had planned for me. I had a graceful exit from my old job that I couldn’t have planned better myself.

That was about 2 months ago, and now I’m facing another situation where I want things to move faster.

When frustration and impatience start knocking at my door, I practice the spiritual discipline of remembering. Because sometimes we don’t need a new word from God; we need to remember the last thing he did.

I still don’t know how this current season will unfold. But I do know what God did in the last one.

And if his timing was perfect then, I have reason to believe it’s perfect now.