What’s Been Living Inside You?
A few nights ago I had a dream about some old high school classmates.
The night before that, I had a dream about an old family member whom I’d rather not be dreaming about.
And girl. I’ve been having dreams about these people for years.
But this time was different.
The first dream ruined my entire day. Literally. And it wasn’t even the dream itself that was on my mind! But I literally had a bad day. And I know it started with that dream.
When I woke up from the second dream on the second night, I remember feeling curious.
Curious as to why it’s been many years, and I’m living a completely different life, yet I’m still dreaming about people from my past.
So I asked God what’s the tea.
And girl…… he clocked it.
He revealed to me that how I view people today is based on the negative experiences I had with people in my childhood.
I was like wow. So true.
That word really blessed me. Not only did it provide insight as to why I have these dreams, but it’s also helping to shine a light on what’s living inside me that I need to be healed and delivered from.
And that’s where I’m at in this season.
I want nothing more than for God to purify my heart.
Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.
That is my prayer for myself. I believe this season of my life will require me to let God tend to the root of my thoughts, beliefs, and behaviors.
And if I may, I want to encourage you to do the same.
It won’t be easy. In fact, I think it might be one of the most humbling experiences of our lives. But when we pay attention, we can see that God is doing a new thing. I believe that this is the season that God is going to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we can ask or think – assuming that we’re willing to do the hard, but necessary work of looking within.
So again I ask, what’s been living inside you? Sit with that question and bring it into your 1:1 time with God. I’m praying for you and your journey towards being made whole.🧡🌱
